ahhh…all is good
Children are wonderful things.
We’re home and rested now. Ruth’s pain has pretty much gone away and we’re getting used to this new version of ‘normal’ that we’ve been given. I realize that my life will never go back to the normal I used to have, rather I have been given a brand new normal that seems a little abnormal for now.
I always get asked what I’m thinking / feeling. I have a really hard time answering that question. I suppose I should be able to wax eloquent about the rivers of joy and gladness flowing from my heart from the first moment that I saw him, but I don’t think that’s an accurate description of what happened. I don’t really know what happened. I don’t really know how I feel. I feel happy. Very happy.
There is a type of satisfaction that’s come over me. It’s almost like I’m done. Like my little family is complete now. I intend to have more kids eventually, but for now…I feel done.
I love Joseph. I love his mom. I think I’d do anything for them. What a new situation I find myself in. In a lot of ways it feels surreal. In a lot of ways it seems very normal. In a lot of ways I just don’t know. All I really know is now I have a wife and a kid, and I’m very happy about that.