Matt W Cook

writer.former fundamentalist.christianly fellow

Blocked Again

So it looks like the Pakistani government has once again decided that the people here are far too stupid to be able to handle seeing some opposing viewpoints. As of this morning Blogspot, and who knows what other sites, are blocked in this country. Makes sense, right? Someone has a blog that says offensive things, so instead of examining their points and maybe even trying to respond to them, we just block the whole friggin’ server.

I guess we Christians do the same thing though. Whenever a new book or movie comes out that proposes some opposing viewpoints our first and only reaction is boycott. And so these viewpoints go unchallenged and interpret our silence as weakness. Jesus never did that. Neither should we. Wouldn’t it be better to take things like the Da Vinci Code, The God Delusion or the Golden Compass, read and analyze them and, if they don’t hold water, take them down?

We breathe selfishly when we refuse to listen to the voices of the world around us, especially when those voices are screaming things that we know to be false.

Rain Dance

Technical demons being what they are, it looks like I’ll be postponing my shift to a new server for a while. Sorry about that, folks.

My brother, Mike, is hanging out with me here in Pakistan. With him he brings a wealth of new tastes in music. On band that I’ve fallen in love with is Rise Against. Here’s a reason why I love them:

If I held my ground would you ask me to change?
This drought bleeds on now we’re dancing for rain
We drink the air but it’s still not the same
These worlds collide but the distance remains
We point the finger, never accept the blame.

Rise Against, in most of their songs, points out that massive problems in the predominant world system of the day. They charge society with cruelty, hypocrisy and hatred toward those different from us. In this song it seems to me that they liken this sinful world system with a drought, bleeding on. Looking at us who recognize the drought he makes the stinging point that most of us are doing nothing more than dancing for rain. We see the problems, we point our fingers at those who are guilty, but what do we really do to solve them?

Those of us who recognize the evils of this world system, this world machine “feeding on the tears of broken lives and dying dreams” have a solemn responsibility to throw “wrenches in the gears. Our lives will not be lived in vain.”

A city set on a hill cannot be hidden…

PS – New Photos

Men, as trees walking

Remember when Jesus healed the blind man, but the healing wasn’t complete right away? That’s kinda what this news is like:

The Cracked Pot

The URL is temporary, hopefully by the end of the week it will be here:

The (real) Cracked Pot

In The Wind…

Change is in the wind. Stay tuned…

Booze

I’m reading through The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment.

Haven’t picked up a Puritan book for a long time. I’m really glad I did, though. One line I read has stuck in my head.

“It is the nature of grace to turn water into wine.”

He’s specifically referring to Grace turning the water of affliction into wine of joy. But I was thinking about a wider application, how it’s the nature of Grace to chance the very essence of whatever it touches into something beautiful and intoxicatingly joyful.

Thanks, Mr. Burroughs.

It’s hard…

I think Canadian Internet spoiled me.

I just finished reading ‘Thousand Splendid Suns.’ If you’ve never heard of it, get it and read it. It’s great. I’ll try to avoid spoilers in this post.

But it has the potential to be depressing. When I finished the climax scene I stopped reading for a second and looked up and just thought about it. It was sad. I was frowning about it when Ruth walked into the room with Asha in her arms. Joe followed them. And then I realized the (or a) point of the book.

I have love in my life.

I have a wife who loves me. I have kids who, as much as they are able to, love me. I have a family in Canada and Pakistan who loves me. I have friends all over the world who love me. Encouraging, yes?

But then I thought of something even more encouraging. I love them, too.

I think we’re all dark. Love doesn’t really come naturally to us. But when we do love, it’s about the most joyful, wonderful thing there is. I don’t think I love my family and friends without help. I am sure, knowing my heart and what it is, that the love I have would not have evolved on its own with divine help. God has enabled me to love.

So I looked at my wife and kids and thought to myself, “I love them.” There is the greatest blessing. Not that I’ve been given people who love me. But that I love them. Not that God loves me. But that God has helped me love him. ‘Jesus loves me.’ doesn’t encourage me nearly as much as this crazy, near-impossible phrase that I am able to say: ‘I love Jesus.’

Isn’t that the essence of being called out of darkness into his marvelous light?

Be Back Soon

I loved being with all you wonderful people! Can’t wait to see you again. I’m flying out today, pray for us for these next months. I have a couple people visiting me, one of them being my little brother. Pray that God will show them both exactly what they need to see.

On we go!!

Golfing With Jesus

My dad came home from work today and said, “Dude, let’s do something.” So he, Mike and I went out to engage in just about the strangest sport you could dream up. Driving Range. That’s right, we grabbed a bucket full of balls and whacked at them for an hour with strange, metal sticks.

I am about the worst golfer in the world. I can rarely even make contact with the ball and when I do I more often than not dig into the ground below it, sending dirt further than the ball. And it’s a pretty frustrating gam when you’re losing. I don’t like losing.

Dave and Mike are pretty good, which made it all worse. Mike would sail those balls out as far as the eye can see and then have the nerve to complain about how it was too far to the right. It was kinda like those punks in college who never have to study, pull 95% on all the exams and then complain about it (*cough* Andy Mack). So it really wasn’t all that encouraging in the beginning, though it was certainly fun.

At this driving range there is an old car about halfway down, beat-up from years of being pelted with balls. I couldn’t guess at how far away it was. Probably very close for normal golfers, but it seemed like an unachievable ideal for someone like me. So Mike, our resident skilled dude, suggested that the first one to hit the stupid thing should receive ten dollars from the two losers. Dave thought it was a good idea. I’m not one to think through things, so I also agreed.

Now, I know my limitations. I fully understood that I’d never be getting that twenty dollar prize. Heck, I doubted even Dave or Mike could have hit that thing. But I tried anyway. Unfortunately under the pressure my game actually got worse. So after and five tries I gave up inside. No worries.

So I grabbed another ball, not caring about the car. I set it up and took out one of those funny sticks with a 3 on it. As I set myself up a few thoughts went through my head. Wouldn’t it be neat, I thought, if I actually hit that thing? But I certainly don’t have the skill for it. And if we’re talking about luck here I might as well try the lottery. And then I thought these exact words, though I really can’t understand why: “Jesus, show me how you feel about me with this next shot.” I have no clue why that thought showed up.

And then I swung. Didn’t really try, actually. But the ball went high and straight, the best shot of the day for me. It bounced on the ground right in front of the car and pelted it on the door. Dave and Mike were dumbfounded.

Now, I’m not one of those guys who things Jesus picks out the perfect parking spot for me whenever I ask for one. I know that it could have been complete chance that I hit that thing. But the object lesson I got out of it leans me toward thinking that Jesus actually did move that ball.

You see, I’m completely useless. Single-handedly I doubled the amount of divots on that driving range. But it didn’t matter that I was useless because Jesus likes doing crazy things with useless people. So the next time I look at a project before me that seems completely out of my depth, I’m just going to ask myself if the job is from Jesus or not. Because if he’s willing to give me a hand in winning $20 golfing, then surely he’ll get the impossible done through me when he himself is asking me to do it, right?

Golfing With Jesus

My dad came home from work today and said, “Dude, let’s do something.” So he, Mike and I went out to engage in just about the strangest sport you could dream up. Driving Range. That’s right, we grabbed a bucket full of balls and whacked at them for an hour with strange, metal sticks.

I am about the worst golfer in the world. I can rarely even make contact with the ball and when I do I more often than not dig into the ground below it, sending dirt further than the ball. And it’s a pretty frustrating gam when you’re losing. I don’t like losing.

Dave and Mike are pretty good, which made it all worse. Mike would sail those balls out as far as the eye can see and then have the nerve to complain about how it was too far to the right. It was kinda like those punks in college who never have to study, pull 95% on all the exams and then complain about it (*cough* Andy Mack). So it really wasn’t all that encouraging in the beginning, though it was certainly fun.

At this driving range there is an old car about halfway down, beat-up from years of being pelted with balls. I couldn’t guess at how far away it was. Probably very close for normal golfers, but it seemed like an unachievable ideal for someone like me. So Mike, our resident skilled dude, suggested that the first one to hit the stupid thing should receive ten dollars from the two losers. Dave thought it was a good idea. I’m not one to think through things, so I also agreed.

Now, I know my limitations. I fully understood that I’d never be getting that twenty dollar prize. Heck, I doubted even Dave or Mike could have hit that thing. But I tried anyway. Unfortunately under the pressure my game actually got worse. So after and five tries I gave up inside. No worries.

So I grabbed another ball, not caring about the car. I set it up and took out one of those funny sticks with a 3 on it. As I set myself up a few thoughts went through my head. Wouldn’t it be neat, I thought, if I actually hit that thing? But I certainly don’t have the skill for it. And if we’re talking about luck here I might as well try the lottery. And then I thought these exact words, though I really can’t understand why: “Jesus, show me how you feel about me with this next shot.” I have no clue why that thought showed up.

And then I swung. Didn’t really try, actually. But the ball went high and straight, the best shot of the day for me. It bounced on the ground right in front of the car and pelted it on the door. Dave and Mike were dumbfounded.

Now, I’m not one of those guys who things Jesus picks out the perfect parking spot for me whenever I ask for one. I know that it could have been complete chance that I hit that thing. But the object lesson I got out of it leans me toward thinking that Jesus actually did move that ball.

You see, I’m completely useless. Single-handedly I doubled the amount of divots on that driving range. But it didn’t matter that I was useless because Jesus likes doing crazy things with useless people. So the next time I look at a project before me that seems completely out of my depth, I’m just going to ask myself if the job is from Jesus or not. Because if he’s willing to give me a hand in winning $20 golfing, then surely he’ll get the impossible done through me when he himself is asking me to do it, right?

Plug

Just wanted to draw your attention to a good friend of mine who recently started blogging. Drop by and say hi!

Or, if you haven’t the time to read more blogs, why don’t you just buy one of his books instead?