There is an intense sensation that I’ve found only in a few places. A sensation of deep reality. Of trueness. A sort of clarity of life that reminds me that I’m alive and so is everyone around me. Earthy. Dirty. Wondrous.
I first noticed it in Pakistan. I had it every single day. It was as if every bit of artificial life was taken away and nothing but the raw, pulsing trueness of life remained. I think it was this sense that made me love Pakistan so much.
I have felt it in other places, too. Sporting events. Protests. Certain types of bars.
I had expected it to be in Thorncliffe. After all, Thorncliffe was supposed to be mini-Pakistan, wasn’t it? I was surprised to find that Thorncliffe didn’t have it, though. It was wonderful to live there for four years, but the spark wasn’t there.
But it seems to be on Bloor.
I took my bike down to the coffee shop near our new place. I could feel it there. The dangerous, moving life. The sense that everyone I see is interesting and beautiful and full of so much potential love and power and happiness.
I’m going to enjoy living here.