In Exodus chapter 4, Moses has Pressfield-style Resistance. He saw the impossible: the unburnt burning bush. It was a perspective-widening experience that changed how he sees everything, and he knows, more or less, what he’s supposed to do next. But he’s afraid and doubting.
Doubt 1: They will not believe me (my contribution won’t be respected or validated and thus will not matter)
Stick into a snake (and back again)!
that cool thing you do where a thing turns into something else–you’ll be able to do it again
Hand all leprous (and back again)!
that time it looked like it was all over but then it got better–that happens too
Water into blood (it isn’t coming back)!
failing all else, pouring your heart out onto the sand should be convincing
Doubt 2: I am not eloquent (i’m so dumb when i talk it’ll invalidate my whole thing)
Who hath made man’s mouth?
the complex wirings and intricate circumstances that have arisen to form your supposed deficiencies are part of the same system that makes up even your most treasured conceptions of self
I will be with thy mouth.
trust the soup
Doubt 3: Send by the hand of whom thou wilt (i can’t think of any other excuses at the moment but just please not me)
The Levite your brother can speak well. #angerkindled
you don’t have to do it alone but you do have to do it
And Moses took his wife and sons,
and set them upon an ass,
and he returned to the land of Egypt
and took the rod of God in his hand.